It's Official.....

Well after pulling my TI'ness from within me, straight hustle Homie, I got an internship and a job for the summer. I look forward to 60 hour work weeks but hey it's what I do. I don't know how to sit down. I'll be Austin Bound at St. Edward's University which is less than 5 minutes away from the best job I have ever had, camp counselor at Austin Nature and Science Center. I'll teach my kids great hiking techniques but also the science of making a fantastic volcano. I can't wait to be a fake parent this summer again and explore the beauty of Austin with my campers. I'm too excited. May needs to get here ASAP!!!!

Today

Today I promise to be a little more patient
Today I promise not to be so hard on myself
Today I seek for understanding
Today I search for who I am and what I need
Today I must stay steadfast
Today I must be prayed up and unmovable
Today is a new day

Frustration....

I'm waiting for a breakthrough.....

Have you ever been at that moment where enough was enough, you were beat down, and the white flag has been raised? Well I'm there. I'm dealing with a tumultuous issue at this moment and I wander how will God pull me through. It always seems that my life has to be hard, filled with tests, constantly, I just can't LIVE. Live, you know where you don't have to worry as much, you can enjoy life and do what is needed to survive and be happy. Instead, I have to be the ultimate multi-tasker, filled with inconsiderate individuals that don't understand me, ME. I'm not selfish but I wander why my life has taken this uncanny pattern of always dealing with a struggle. Never can I get things easy, not that I want to all the time, but I deserve something better

I'm tired of being the only one that can't have the full spectrum of fulfillment. Everyone around me is living the life, jobs, school, significant other ect ect ect. What do I have? My work and school, nothing more, nothing less and I'm tired, tired of it all. I need a change, I need a break through, I pray I can survive!!!!

I think my mind can send vibes as far as the Super Bowl...

Sooooooo I am watching the Super Bowl with Pittsburgh and the Cards and Bruce Sprinsteen is performing. Anywho he is bouncing on stage too much for my liking and I secretly wish he would fall, I know evil. I texted a friend my issue, 30 secs later he falls!!! I'm like oh shhhhhhh. Also why does every white artist need a black choir to back them up, it's so stereotypical now. Look at me I luv black people, NEXT!!!! Looks like the Steelers are gonna win this one unless the Cards can become the little engine that could!!!!