Thankful for family...

This is short but I luv my family. I was able to lay my grandmother to rest Saturday and even though it was only a day, it felt like an eternity that I was home. I hate leaving every time and I am blessed to have some great parents, gosh. Oh and DFW airport is amazing. I just luv the ski-link. Why can't every airport have that!!!

I got some pep in my step...

As I sit tonight chowing down on hot tamales, I am reviewing today's Inauguration Events and I have questions or issues:

I'm ecstatic to have a black man become president of the free world, or so they say but my God I would hate to be in his shoes. This man has pressure beyond what I felt to graduate from college and get into grad school, find a job ect ect, geesh.

Aretha was wrong for that hat. What a delightful early christmas gift for us all. At least those mammoth boobs weren't showing or they would have swallowed the first family whole.

I wasn't feeling Michelle's dresses today. Grandma curtains, feathers and cotton swabs are not in. You got out-staged by your own kids. Also where was her wedding ring at the balls, girl he put a  ring on it, you better show it.

I wish Americans weren't so naive. Obama is not God or some dude that will save us. Are people crazy? Are we so desperate of a nation that a slogan such as yes we can, will make us believe that all i swell and will be solved, ummmmmmmmmmm, still waiting.

Beowolf tried to steal the show.

BET had a ball??? No one got shot????? Is this change.......

10 balls and faking like it was your first dance is wrong, wrong, wrong. I would be like eff that.

Overall I hope Obama does well. This man has a tough road ahead!!!!!

I just can't seem to start a semester off right..

I woke up Friday morning with a jolt in my stomach ad lots of emotional pain. I was confused, what could be wrong but later I would find out. Today was a hurtful day. I found out that my dad's mom passed away. I was prepared for I knew she was sickly but you can never prepare for death and it's reaction. I was at my desk in my GA's office as I listened to my brother tell me the news. After a 10 minute talk I just started to cry silently but I wasn't alone. The two other GA's in the office were there to comfort me. I'm not one to open up to people and I sure don't like to open up to people too much but I realized that I had people who cared about me in my life.

Most of the times I feel that I don't deserve it. I don't know why but I have always had this notion that I should help those in need at all times but never receive it back, I am a Capricorn so I guess thats just how things work with me. AFter talking to a few friends I realized how important it is to open and tell people how you feel. People can't read your mind and if you're going through and they act a certain way, can we blame the way people act, no we can't.

The day was long but I stayed at work till 2, why? I needed to be around people and for the first time in my life and leaned on others and enjoyed people's presence, something I don't normally do. I eventually spoke with my parents throughout the day and felt at piece. That night I met up with another GA and went to a gymnastics meet, not to enjoy it really but to be around people and happiness. I just couldn't be alone this weekend. 

This has been quite a start for my semester. Last semester I dealt with extreme change, leaving family and friends behind in another state and then experiencing a catastrophic hurricane and now the loss of my grandmother. I'm not beat down but I am at that moment where I'm just god awful tired and am trying to fight. As an author said, an injured lion still likes to roar, well, I'm injured and am trying to roar but not much is coming out. I pray I survive this semester....

Another semester

Well the weekend is up, my Titans lost and I'm not ready for school to start again, but I have no choice but to go and get it over with. I am very optimistic of this semester and am wandering how it will end up.  I pray for success, less stress and no mess. Yup that's a nice rhyming sentence, how adorable. I also would like to put the spotlight on a dear friend who has such a sweet message as to what people may want, she hit it on the nail and I'm posting it. 

What I want:

To be given one more chance to prove I can do this. Discipline to push through the tougher times. Courage to pipe up, pipe on. Faith in my future. Clarity in my dreams. Freedom to dream unrealistically. Cessation of restraining my dreams. Optimism. Shown where I'm meant to go, but given the choice on how to get there. Reassurance, support. Surrender to appearing foolish. To stop caring what others think. Rediscovery of solace in the faith I had left behind. To love and be loved in return. To stop restricting myself. My best friend, my confidant. To be pined after. To trust. To stop expecting the worse in others. To be happy: completely, extensively, intensely, totally happy.

I love this and I definitely love the author very much...

I really needed this and will follow accordingly.

Where is my energy...

I needed a break....

Quickly I just want to post that I am becoming more embarrassing with my energy levels. Seriously I'm tired all day except for when I'm working out. So do I need to run all day? I don't think so, but somethings not right. Maybe, the son of man Tebow can heal my exhaustive nature. That would be nice. The weekend is coming, praise ya, and I just want to sleep, workout and pray the Titans can win on Saturday. That's all I want. I'm not asking for much. Oh and I'm learning to not freak out, well for one day that is. I kept telling myself to just breathe, breathe, breathe and it worked. I smell breathing mediation days on a daily basis for real. 

It's been a while.. I gotta do better

My New Year's lame resolution is to actually fill up this blog. I'm so exhausted and busy all the time but I'm gonna make the effort even if it's a tiny blurb. I completed my first semester of grad school, got to finally go home, made new friends who I adore, learned alot about myself and grew a year older, oh snap. My Winter Break is up and I'm now back at work, stressed beyond belief. This semester will be HELL. I smell it and I don't like the scent of it at all. I'm gonna try to enjoy it but that's highly unlikely. I don't stop to smell roses, I walk by them and run to my next project which is bad, but what can I do. School starts back Monday and the only push is knowing that I'm closer to being done, well sort of. I wander what this semester holds but I forecast it to be highly stressful unless I can learn how to breathe, once again highly unlikely. I'm tired and ready to go to bed but that won't happen either, so cheers to some trash TV, my brain hurts.