I got some pep in my step...

As I sit tonight chowing down on hot tamales, I am reviewing today's Inauguration Events and I have questions or issues:

I'm ecstatic to have a black man become president of the free world, or so they say but my God I would hate to be in his shoes. This man has pressure beyond what I felt to graduate from college and get into grad school, find a job ect ect, geesh.

Aretha was wrong for that hat. What a delightful early christmas gift for us all. At least those mammoth boobs weren't showing or they would have swallowed the first family whole.

I wasn't feeling Michelle's dresses today. Grandma curtains, feathers and cotton swabs are not in. You got out-staged by your own kids. Also where was her wedding ring at the balls, girl he put a  ring on it, you better show it.

I wish Americans weren't so naive. Obama is not God or some dude that will save us. Are people crazy? Are we so desperate of a nation that a slogan such as yes we can, will make us believe that all i swell and will be solved, ummmmmmmmmmm, still waiting.

Beowolf tried to steal the show.

BET had a ball??? No one got shot????? Is this change.......

10 balls and faking like it was your first dance is wrong, wrong, wrong. I would be like eff that.

Overall I hope Obama does well. This man has a tough road ahead!!!!!

I just can't seem to start a semester off right..

I woke up Friday morning with a jolt in my stomach ad lots of emotional pain. I was confused, what could be wrong but later I would find out. Today was a hurtful day. I found out that my dad's mom passed away. I was prepared for I knew she was sickly but you can never prepare for death and it's reaction. I was at my desk in my GA's office as I listened to my brother tell me the news. After a 10 minute talk I just started to cry silently but I wasn't alone. The two other GA's in the office were there to comfort me. I'm not one to open up to people and I sure don't like to open up to people too much but I realized that I had people who cared about me in my life.

Most of the times I feel that I don't deserve it. I don't know why but I have always had this notion that I should help those in need at all times but never receive it back, I am a Capricorn so I guess thats just how things work with me. AFter talking to a few friends I realized how important it is to open and tell people how you feel. People can't read your mind and if you're going through and they act a certain way, can we blame the way people act, no we can't.

The day was long but I stayed at work till 2, why? I needed to be around people and for the first time in my life and leaned on others and enjoyed people's presence, something I don't normally do. I eventually spoke with my parents throughout the day and felt at piece. That night I met up with another GA and went to a gymnastics meet, not to enjoy it really but to be around people and happiness. I just couldn't be alone this weekend. 

This has been quite a start for my semester. Last semester I dealt with extreme change, leaving family and friends behind in another state and then experiencing a catastrophic hurricane and now the loss of my grandmother. I'm not beat down but I am at that moment where I'm just god awful tired and am trying to fight. As an author said, an injured lion still likes to roar, well, I'm injured and am trying to roar but not much is coming out. I pray I survive this semester....

Another semester

Well the weekend is up, my Titans lost and I'm not ready for school to start again, but I have no choice but to go and get it over with. I am very optimistic of this semester and am wandering how it will end up.  I pray for success, less stress and no mess. Yup that's a nice rhyming sentence, how adorable. I also would like to put the spotlight on a dear friend who has such a sweet message as to what people may want, she hit it on the nail and I'm posting it. 

What I want:

To be given one more chance to prove I can do this. Discipline to push through the tougher times. Courage to pipe up, pipe on. Faith in my future. Clarity in my dreams. Freedom to dream unrealistically. Cessation of restraining my dreams. Optimism. Shown where I'm meant to go, but given the choice on how to get there. Reassurance, support. Surrender to appearing foolish. To stop caring what others think. Rediscovery of solace in the faith I had left behind. To love and be loved in return. To stop restricting myself. My best friend, my confidant. To be pined after. To trust. To stop expecting the worse in others. To be happy: completely, extensively, intensely, totally happy.

I love this and I definitely love the author very much...

I really needed this and will follow accordingly.

Where is my energy...

I needed a break....

Quickly I just want to post that I am becoming more embarrassing with my energy levels. Seriously I'm tired all day except for when I'm working out. So do I need to run all day? I don't think so, but somethings not right. Maybe, the son of man Tebow can heal my exhaustive nature. That would be nice. The weekend is coming, praise ya, and I just want to sleep, workout and pray the Titans can win on Saturday. That's all I want. I'm not asking for much. Oh and I'm learning to not freak out, well for one day that is. I kept telling myself to just breathe, breathe, breathe and it worked. I smell breathing mediation days on a daily basis for real. 

It's been a while.. I gotta do better

My New Year's lame resolution is to actually fill up this blog. I'm so exhausted and busy all the time but I'm gonna make the effort even if it's a tiny blurb. I completed my first semester of grad school, got to finally go home, made new friends who I adore, learned alot about myself and grew a year older, oh snap. My Winter Break is up and I'm now back at work, stressed beyond belief. This semester will be HELL. I smell it and I don't like the scent of it at all. I'm gonna try to enjoy it but that's highly unlikely. I don't stop to smell roses, I walk by them and run to my next project which is bad, but what can I do. School starts back Monday and the only push is knowing that I'm closer to being done, well sort of. I wander what this semester holds but I forecast it to be highly stressful unless I can learn how to breathe, once again highly unlikely. I'm tired and ready to go to bed but that won't happen either, so cheers to some trash TV, my brain hurts.

Nov. 4......

I felt I had to blog today because in the instance of one night, America elected it's first African American President. Words can not express what has gone through my mind this entire time. The day didn't start easy as I had to wait till I was approved to vote since my precinct didn't have my name on the list. I was nervous but willing to wait no matter how long it took, because my right to vote means so much to me. I finally got to vote even with the wacked up system in Louisiana, a large sheet where you press names and stuff, weird, can I have a computer please, ok thanks so much!!!

As I watched the the electoral votes come in and then Obama's speech, I was grateful, thankful, and  filled with emotions I haven't felt in a long time. I couldn't and still can't believe what has happened. I sat starry eyed as a 5 year old, not thinking but watching and trying to soak up every single word Obama said. I also must mention how proud that my first lady is a woman I want to become. One who is resilient, powerful, intelligent, and fearless in her decisions. She is  a role model for young girls across the world and I definitely will continue to follow her.  

One thing I must bring up though is how optimistic I am with this election. I truly believe in Obama but it seems that people are thinking change is going to happen over night, like today. Last time I checked, Bush is in office, the stock market is still failing and the housing market is in  a crisis. People still can't find jobs and children are going without the proper daily needs such as food and clothing. I'm sorry but I know Obama's election is great for us, but he better change this mess, but at the same time, we must be patient. I was watching an interview where a chick was saying now she won't have to worry about her mortgage payments. Really homegirl? Stupid comments like that make me wander what the hell is wrong with some people. Let's not be dumb, shuffling doing two steps in the office and thinking all is well. Guess what, IT'S NOT STILL. But Obama symbolizes PROMISE and with the way society is going, promise is heralded in a higher beacon of light. I never thought I would see this day and movies such as Head of State made us laugh but say, ehhhh it won't happen , but for African Americans, and all Americans, it has.

We are desperate, we need change, YES WE CAN, for now.....

It's been a long time....

Oh my word.....

It has been crazy times for myself. Between being a GA on campus, mentoring in athletics, and going to grad classes, I'm swamped. All in all I have still found myself having time to go to an away football game, shocker and even slowly adjusting to LSU. It's been a test and I have my days but slowly I am starting to like it here alot. The office I work in is like family and my cohort mates have become my partners in crime. SO much has happened  since my last post:

1. That guy that was a little off, is now my friend

2. I do not want to be a faculty member on the tenured route

3. No matter what age a guy is, he still has little boy 2nd grade flashback tendencies in him which drive me nuts

4. Chicks take things too seriously, lighten up for christ sakes

5. I miss UT, but it's not as bad as it was in September

6. If I see one more Tebow circumcision story, I may do something real bad

7. Go Titans

8. The weather outside is frightful, ok not so much but 40 degrees in the South.....

9. ATL Housewives is  a hot mess that you want to deny but get drawn in EVERYTIME it comes on, and I mean everytime

10. Capricorns, including myself are crazy, what the hell is wrong with us and these moods of ours

Overall I'm looking forward to what happens this semester but who knows what can occur, till next time.

Happy there Nicole:)